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Post by Lili on May 24, 2005 7:53:51 GMT -5
Oh peanut it must be a true blessing to have a friend like you..I feel so ashamed and so small when I read your words. Especially when I read on other side someone calling you a ‘scumpal”..Shame on them!!!..Wish I were such a person...
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Post by peanut on May 24, 2005 10:20:40 GMT -5
Lili, thank you for such a nice compliment! I try to live by the saying, "There, but for the grace of God, go I". You shouldn't feel ashamed, or small. You came to penpal forum unsure about being a penpal, asking questions and contemplating what is comfortable, or right for you. That shows me that you do care...that you're not a coward....your not selfish. You, and only you, can choose what's right for you.
I'm not entirely certain what prompted me to begin writing Doug all those years ago. In his profile, he was straight up about being guilty. He had many interests that were similar to mine. I opened his profile, read it, and closed it out. A month or so later, I came across it again...opened it, read it, and closed it out. When I stumbled across it a third time, I felt it must be some sort of fate and picked up a pen and started writing. I will never regret making that decision. I was nervous, yes. What was I doing writing someone on death row when I had the safety of my family to consider? When the reply came, he was so happy to have received my letter...his excitement was obvious in his words. Never once did I think of him as some evil monster. His words were those of just a man...a man who loved his family, friends, and rock and roll.
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Post by Lili on May 24, 2005 10:46:23 GMT -5
I am not dealing very well with death. When my Granny died I ended in ER hyperventilating till I lost conscious. I was sedated for two months after that. When my dog was killed my parents had to take me to psychiatry - I didn’t attend my collage lessons for a month..so, I am not sure if I would be a good pan pal to someone facing the death. Hope you understand what I am saying.
I can’t promise that I am going to write a letter, but I can promise that I will always fight against the DP in every way that is available to me.
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Post by CCADP on May 24, 2005 10:49:34 GMT -5
We all do what we think we can and there are lots of ways to fight this death penalty!!! I am so sorry at what you have gone thru!
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Post by Lili on May 24, 2005 11:49:01 GMT -5
I've sent a mail of support to a mother whose son is on the death row I've met here..it is mother to mother thing, but maybe it is some kind of beginning..
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Post by peanut on May 24, 2005 15:08:43 GMT -5
Lili, that's a wonderful start!!
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