Post by butterfly on Apr 21, 2005 14:49:23 GMT -5
Hello! let me introduced myself. My name is Emma.
I am from Europe. I have a friend who try to survive on the wonderful Texas death row
. I write several times a week and visit him when it is possible.
I had another good friend. His name was Christopher Britton.
Unfortunately, he killed himself lately
. I wrote a text for Christopher. I want people know he was not a monster and the reason why he hung himself.
Let me share a text i wrote for him:
"My Dearest friend,
February 4th, 2005 was a very sad day. It will always be a bad one. You killed yourself.
You chose to die because staying alive in that hell was beyond your strength and very hard to deal with. In your last letter, you let me know that you had no future and wanted to go home.
You were schizophrenic and also suffering from paranoia bi-polar disorder. Instead of giving you therapy and medical care, the state sent you to death! It is a shame!
You begged for the right medications so many times. Nobody believed you or wanted to hear you. They denied giving any help. They could have “saved” your life. But they did not! They just gave you medications for depression and this was not what you needed. What they did to you was more than inhuman. But who cares in that place? Nobody! The State doesn’t know the meaning of humanity. Who was the monster? Certainly not you!
The newspapers had written such a horrible portrait of you. Through my eyes, you were a loving friend and those who knew you well can understand the meaning of my words. You are irreplaceable. We did not always agree, but we shared a lot of things that were very important: Friendship, the meaning of life, hope, laughs, humor, fears, tears, music, songs, nature, movies… and we sometimes talked about what future might have been…We also helped each other to make it through tough times.
We saw each other a few days before and we had a good time. Last time I saw you, when I looked into your eyes, I could see sadness. You were sick of that place. You had enough of the inhumane treatments and sensory deprivation. The outside world was totally missing in your life and you missed your son terribly as well… you tried to keep strong in front of me. So, you laughed and smiled to hide your despair. But I could still sense and see your fears… We did not need to talk to understand each other. Behind your facade I knew how you felt.
We will remember you as a loving friend. You were a very clever man with your great sense of humor.
I was always amazed because you wanted to learn more about everything - your curiosity was endless.
I want to remember the good moments we shared together.
To you my dearest friend, we already miss you. Thank you so much for what we have shared.
You gave us so much despite your situation. It was precious and meant a lot. I do hope you are in a better world where nobody can harm you anymore.
Your grandparents, your friends and I will never forget you. You are with us every day, but Life will never be the same now. Never forget that we all love you.
Rest in peace now. We will keep you in our heart forever.
Your best friend always.
Emma"
I am from Europe. I have a friend who try to survive on the wonderful Texas death row
. I write several times a week and visit him when it is possible.I had another good friend. His name was Christopher Britton.
Unfortunately, he killed himself lately
. I wrote a text for Christopher. I want people know he was not a monster and the reason why he hung himself.Let me share a text i wrote for him:
"My Dearest friend,
February 4th, 2005 was a very sad day. It will always be a bad one. You killed yourself.
You chose to die because staying alive in that hell was beyond your strength and very hard to deal with. In your last letter, you let me know that you had no future and wanted to go home.
You were schizophrenic and also suffering from paranoia bi-polar disorder. Instead of giving you therapy and medical care, the state sent you to death! It is a shame!
You begged for the right medications so many times. Nobody believed you or wanted to hear you. They denied giving any help. They could have “saved” your life. But they did not! They just gave you medications for depression and this was not what you needed. What they did to you was more than inhuman. But who cares in that place? Nobody! The State doesn’t know the meaning of humanity. Who was the monster? Certainly not you!
The newspapers had written such a horrible portrait of you. Through my eyes, you were a loving friend and those who knew you well can understand the meaning of my words. You are irreplaceable. We did not always agree, but we shared a lot of things that were very important: Friendship, the meaning of life, hope, laughs, humor, fears, tears, music, songs, nature, movies… and we sometimes talked about what future might have been…We also helped each other to make it through tough times.
We saw each other a few days before and we had a good time. Last time I saw you, when I looked into your eyes, I could see sadness. You were sick of that place. You had enough of the inhumane treatments and sensory deprivation. The outside world was totally missing in your life and you missed your son terribly as well… you tried to keep strong in front of me. So, you laughed and smiled to hide your despair. But I could still sense and see your fears… We did not need to talk to understand each other. Behind your facade I knew how you felt.
We will remember you as a loving friend. You were a very clever man with your great sense of humor.
I was always amazed because you wanted to learn more about everything - your curiosity was endless.
I want to remember the good moments we shared together.
To you my dearest friend, we already miss you. Thank you so much for what we have shared.
You gave us so much despite your situation. It was precious and meant a lot. I do hope you are in a better world where nobody can harm you anymore.
Your grandparents, your friends and I will never forget you. You are with us every day, but Life will never be the same now. Never forget that we all love you.
Rest in peace now. We will keep you in our heart forever.
Your best friend always.
Emma"
. Sometimes we think we can do a lot in order to fight this madness and sometimes we feel so powerless...
I hope you are staying strong, you and Christopher are in my thoughts. Thats all for now, love Mo.
. Thanks so much for posting your kind words. What i am certain for now Chris is at peace in a better place. At least, he did not let these stupid and backwards people killed him. 
