Voices from Forgotten Victims

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Voices from Forgotten Victims

brought to you by ~~deathrowsister
so that these voices may be heard



I dedicate this page to the growing number of forgotten victims - the sons and daughters, husbands and wives, mothers and fathers, and brothers and sisters of inmates in prisons around this country. Through no fault of their own, these innocent victims are instantly thrown into a situation that leaves many of them feeling alone, helpless, hopeless and hated by society. Though family members do not sit behind the bars, they are in an emotional prison house of sorts due to a situation beyond their control. A large segment of society has no compassion for this group of people.


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[Ellen]

Thank you so much for this thread. It means alot to me. You are so right! No one seems to care or want to know what happens to us when it's over. It has been four years now and it seems like yesterday sometimes. I still live that day over and over. It never, ever goes away. Yes, thank you Jesus, it is blocked out for the most part so I can work and get thru the days, but it's the nights that really get to me. I lay in bed sometimes and ask God to please let me see his face, hear his voice, feel his touch, just something to soothe the pain. Of course that never happens and in a few minutes the good Lord brings me peace and I go on to sleep. If you have never lived something like this then you cannot begin to know the heart break. Knowing that my love faced death, walked that walk, waited for that last breath, is something I sometimes cannot bare. What a brave soul he was and what a strong belief he must have had to say I am ready and close his eyes forever. Thank you again for this place to vent.

[cpinrialto]

I had to read some of your old posts to verify that you are who I think you are Ellen. Weren't you banned by the prison from visiting your *husband*? Also is it not true that you were not in the witness room when he was executed? Also is it not true that you made a spectacle of yourself in the visiting room during those days? And please do not try to lie your way out of this one. I was there during that time visiting someone and I saw how you were and the way you behaved and quite frankly you should be ashamed of yourself looking for sympathy now, years later. I wished I had internet access back then because I heard the way you behaved online and it was pathetic, I wanted to speak out then and couldn't. Feel lucky that you didn't have to experience my wrath. I also have a friend in Texas death row who witnessed it too so please do not try to lie your way out of it this time. People know.

[Ellen]

Yes I was banned from seeing my husband for something I did not do and later was allowed to come back but he had to put me back on the visiting list. He chose not to because he had started to write some else. We all know that story. As far as my actions at the prison his last days I actually did not do anything that i was then or now ashamed of. I did not show up until later the second day. I was told I could not come the first day and when i asked him why heofcourse denied he told anyone to tell me I could not come. The second day I came on behalf of my children and sat there and supported them. I only talked to Lonnie once. I left early and had decided not to go back the last day. My oldest daughter(not his) called me and said you cannot let those children go this alone. I got there about noon and talked to him one more time and said today is about these kids not you, me, or her. Say your good-byes to us both and the rest of the day will be theirs. He said you are right. I got up and gather my family in a circle prayer and she went to him and when I raised my head and opened my eyes she was not sitting there anymore. He motioned for the boys to come and that is how the day ended. Now I cannot say who thinks that was anything to be ashamed of and frankly i do not care. I could have really showed my tail you can bet on that. I could have done all the things that was crossing thru my mind, but the good Lord had a hand in that situation and today I am glad it turned out that way. Lonnie was someone none of you knew and so I do not have to explain. You would not understand where he came from and you certainly cannot know where his heart had been and was. I am sorry that you have been blinded by hate for me, because I do not know you and do not care to. I will not have you get on here and lie though. I can give you and anyone else that would like to know the names of all the people there and the names of the two inmates that was sitting next to him and the four guards that remained by our sides. Two of them live here in town. So for everything mean you have to say I can prove you are not telling the truth. Get Jesus!! He can change your heart. Thanks!!!

[pinkgreenpurple]

I won't allow anyone to attack Ellie. She was Lonnie's wife so there is no need to say that with the tone and added *'s around it. They had children together. There were 'other' people who decided that they were going to say that their relationship with Lonnie was something that it wasn't, not Ellie.
Let me say this, I have known Ellie for years. I understand you said you have a friend there on DR and saw everything... well there is not one single person who knows what Ellie was feeling that day. Nobody will react the same way when their husband is killed at the hands of the state. Don't judge her on what you might or might not have seen that day. Unless you were in her shoes you can't judge.
As for her wanting people to feel bad for her all these years later I can tell you that she has NEVER wanted that. She is one of the kindest, sweetest most caring women I have ever met. All she was trying to do was tell those who have gone through it that they aren't alone. There is no need to attack her for that.